Not good news

So we found out yesterday that our foster kids will be going home in the next few weeks. The case worker admits that it is probably not a good idea to send them back to that, but they made so many mistakes in the biginning of this case that they really have no choice. The other lawyers would eat them up if they tried to terminate parental rights. So now we get to pack up the kids and send them back to an extremely unsafe situation. This sucks. Unfortunately, as a foster parent you have to accept what the judge says. Even though he never meets with us or the kids. That is just wrong.
So I guess we will be bringing in a new placement in the next few weeks. That is always so difficult. We manage to get through somehow, but it is difficult. We are really pursueing the adoption thing, though. We have put our name in for several cases. I just hope that it happens quickly. I pray and I pray and time keeps going. I know that I am just feeling down right now, but I just feel like I am very alone in this.
Miranda is currently standing in line for Jonas Brother tickets. She is with a friend and they are trying to get good seats. I think this is a huge step for us in letting her do this. We trust her so much, she has earned it. However, as a parent I want to keep her safe and I can't do it in a situation like this. I keep trying my best to cover all the bases though.
Cadi is with her dance team at adjudication. They have worked pretty hard, but Cadi would says they should have put in a lot more effort in this case. I am sure they will do fine. She was feeling so sick with this cold though. I felt really bad for her having to go and spend about 12 hours down there while she is feeling so bad.
Chey is at work. At least we hope so... She continues to do the same old behaviors. She really is a good kid, she just does not see the consequenses of being a major slacker. When I say major I mean major. This kid does her best to do absolutely nothing. I just don't understand her. She is very different than all of the kids or myself.
The little ones are spending this cold day watching movies and playing.
Me? I am trying really hard to get the laundry caught up and the house back in order after a long week of having a guest and not feeling my best.